My half-sister and I have arranged a time to talk on the phone for the first time ever. We've kept each other at arms' length for the last year, though it sounds like that wasn't really what either of us wanted. I'm nervous. What if she doesn't like me? What if she has expectations and I don't meet them? What if she asks me about my parents? I'm glad we're doing this though. We'll never be sisters in anything more than a technicality if we don't get to know each other at least a little, and we've both always wanted a sister.
I'm trying not to have expectations. I'm trying to remember that a sane person -- any person who I should continue to maintain a relationship with -- will not make a snap judgment about me over our first conversation and decide she hates me. I'm trying to think of things to say and questions to ask her. So much seems too personal. Scheduling our phone date made me so nervous that I forgot for a little while that she grew up with my biological father as her dad. That'll be kind of a weird topic. Is it creepy to ask about him? Or is it expected? I don't know.
I don't expect to have a preternaturally close bond with my half-sister. We look a lot alike, but we don't share THAT much DNA, and we share zero history. I just hope if I push through the awkward feelings that we can reach a point where we enjoy talking to each other.
Wish me luck.